I don’t know about of any of you out there, but lately I’ve been really worried about upsetting people. That if I’m unable to do something for someone, that they will get mad at me, or worse yet tell me I’m not doing my job. I’ve realized today after talking with my wife that I’ve made man “The God” of my life. I can’t do that. I’ve been feeling like I have no desire, passion, or drive to do anything. I’m always worried I’m going to be shot down. That I’ll never live up to anyone’s expectations. I feel that the expectations around me, surpass those of my own. I feel that others expectations of me are more important than those that God has put before me, and even the ones I have for myself.

I have spent sometime today praying and seeking God as to why I feel this way. Why do I have such a hard time with this. I realize because I am man pleasing. Something that I shouldn’t be. I let my compassion for others overweigh my better judgement. For those of you who know I work on computers and work for the church, I take care of all the media and work as the Youth Pastor, I have a hard time asking people to pay for my services on fixing their computers. I let my sympathy, and compassion over take my better judgement. I aim to please man and people. Today I had to repent to God for doing this. Worrying all the time about what people think. When in reality God is the one I need to answer to and to please. I feel this has hindered me the last few weeks and realize now the root of the problem.

A lot of people always think Pastors have it together and think they have no problems. Well I wish that was true. But unfortunately that’s not the case. Sometimes you feel like, “How can I help others when I can’t help myself?” This has been a way of thinking of me for awhile. But I realize today that when I put God first, everything else falls into place.
I love my job, I love what I do, and even more, I love the people. I want you all to think about what I wrote and ask yourself who are you serving? When you repent of this, you will feel a release and the breakthrough God was preparing you for will be able to come out! Blessings!

I don’t know about anyone else, but I feel as though God is getting ready to do something. Erin and I have been getting beaten up, knocked down, drug around so you know what that means? Break through is coming. I have been busy doing some video uploading. I finally got the last of the videos edited and so far at the time i”m writing this, I have 3 uploaded and 3 more coming. Please watch them, rate them, leave comments, we love to hear your feedback. I was out yesterday cutting the grass and realized, WOW spring is here, summer is around the corner and OPERATION: Beach Ministry isn’t far away! The first deadline is tonight and I’m so excited and proud of all of you who have been working hard raising money for the trip.
I would like to encourage all of you to continue to do so, to raise money for the youth group so we can do even more cool things. I too have been busy seeking different venues on how we can raise money and have fun doing so. I would like some feedback as to what you guys would like to do for our May event. (Lets see who all reads our blogs) Leave a comment either on Pastor Erin’s, Dave, myself, or Trina’s wall on Real2Reel social site and tell us what you want to do! I had some ideas of another cook out at our place. We will have the pool up and ready to go. If that is something please let us know! Blessings!