I’ve been thinking a lot lately, how I’m approaching the big 30 and thinking about the question, What have I accomplished? When I look back at my life and see the time I wasted, the mistakes I’ve made. I realize I have made a complete 180 from where I was a year ago, 5 years ago, 10 years ago. A lot has changed. I think one of the greatest accomplishments I can say I have is that I have a family. A family that loves me and cares for me. Even though sometimes they don’t always understand me.

Understand me? This is nothing out of the ordinary. I have always been the one that no one understood or took serious. I always had the hair brain ideas which turned out to be not so hair brained. I guess I look back even at where I was a year ago with The Tech Buzz and I see so much has changed. I watched a guy with a computer and a webcam turn into a live internet production! All because of an idea. I realized that God has given me these ideas. He gave me these talents, these abilities, these strengths to change the world. That’s a mighty bold statement you might be saying, but you know what, I don’t know how, I don’t know when, and I don’t know where but I know it will happen. Or maybe it is happening and because I’m in it, I don’t see it.

The Bible says:”Delight yourself in the LORD and He will give you the desires of your heart” Ps. 37:4. My heart’s desire has always been to work with teens, with Youth, for the kingdom of God. That’s where I’m at right now. Even though sometimes I don’t always understand them I feel I have a lot to offer them. I feel that even though they think I’m old, they know that I’ve been there, and done that. Ever since I learned that I could fix computers and be a technologist, I haven’t let anything or anyone squash my dream, my vision, my goal. I’ve seen adversity come, and I’ve seen it go. But the desire and perseverance out-weighs any comments or negativity. Deep down I know that I am doing EXACTLY what I’m suppose to be doing at this moment and this place in time.

There is a scripture I hold on to everyday which reminds me that even though others don’t understand my ideas or my way of thinking, God does. He gave me those ideas, those hair brained suggestions, and that never quit attitude.”For I know the plans I have for you declares the Lord, plans to prosper, not to harm you, plans to give you a hope and a future. ” Jeremiah 29:11. I want nothing but the best for my wife and my daughter cause God knows I love both of them to death and want my daughter to know that her dad wants nothing but the best for her, and to give her the best life I could possibly give her. I want my wife to know that her support in everything I do,means the world to me. Even though she doesn’t understand me sometimes or understand where my logic is, but trusts me and sees the fruit of my ideas.

I know some of you if your not bored of reading this note and have made it this far are going to question my next thought. I know I’m only going to be turning 30 and to some of you that’s like no big deal but something Erin said the other night to me stuck in my head. About leaving a legacy. I guess when I really thought about it. If I were to die today, what would I want people to remember most about me? I thought really long and hard about this. I would want people to remember the good times I had with them. I would want them to remember me as a caring, kind person. Someone who is wiling to drop what I was doing to help them with their problem. Someone who actually cared about their problems. I would want them to remember me as successful. Someone who worked hard to give his wife and daughter the best that he could possibly give.

Someone who worked around the clock sometimes to get a job done. I would want to be remembered as a provide. I would want my wife and daughter to remember that no matter what obstacle stood in my way, I never gave up. I always looked for another way. The word “can’t” isn’t in my dictionary. But most of all, I would want them to know that I was God fearing. That I was a God fearing man. That I did everything in my physical body to do what God had called me to do and I gave everything I had to be that person. That when they looked back at my life and saw the many accomplishments I made, that this would stick out to them the most. That in all things I put God first and did his will. All that other stuff means nothing if the example of a loving, God fearing husband or Father wasn’t displayed.

Again I’m not trying to be morbid, but how many of us ever stop and think about the legacy that we are leaving? How many of us, really stop and think how if the Lord called us home, what kind of impact would we leave here on this earth. I don’t know about you, but I don’t want that to even be a question. I want to leave a legacy, I want in everything I do, God be the glory. When people say he was a good husband, I want them say he was God fearing husband. When people say he was a good father, I want them to say he was a God fearing father. I was crying to the LORD with my voice, And He answered me from His holy mountain. (PS 3:4) I want everyone to remember no matter how or what my hand succeeded in doing in my life, that I cried out to the Lord and he heard me, and answered me and guided my every step and decision. Do You Understand Me?